“One would say you never truly fail, unless you stopped trying”

Today I thought about killing myself, I thought about how I could do it, why I should do it, and what will be my outcome. I came to no conclusions. AGAIN, Today I thought about killing my self! I thought about when I should do it to help others around me feel better about it. Why worry about others when they’re not worried about me? Today I thought about killing myself, and I haven’t lost the thought. I keep thinking about all the reasons I should, and not many reasons why I shouldn’t. Today I thought about killing my self, I tried to but I couldn’t. My dumb brain kept telling me I wouldn’t. But I kept thinking I would, my heart told me I shouldn’t but led me to reasons why I should. Today I thought about killing my self, and you don’t even care. Today I thought about killing myself. Tell me why am I still here... I’ll see tomorrow, but today I thought about killing myself, just tears, just sorrow. just manifestation from inebriation that led to my realization that I’m still here. Even though today... 

“Everybody is so burnt out or bummed out from the weekend, they hate Monday”